Jan. 23rd, 2008

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Last night I had an argument with my spouse.  It's part of a long standing argument involving how we see the world.  His view saddens me.  I suppose he is entitled to his opinion but still... can I deal with this opinion? Can I live with & love a person knowing he believes this to be true? If I spoke with someone in person about our disparate world views that person might be inclined to take sides, but most certainly their perception of him/us would be changed.

I haven't written the entry yet.  And if I do it will probably be locked to my eyes only.   But this leads me to my question - why do you keep a LiveJournal?

I've taken a break before. I even dumped my old journal and switched to this one. I write my entries for me.  What anyone else says doesn't really matter.  It does, but... not in an essential way.

I view it partly as therapy- it helps me to formulate my thoughts, to let go of angst or irritations. It's partly a log book -just where was my brain in Sept 07 or April 06? And lastly I view it as a way to interact with other people - since my real world seems to be rather limited in that respect. My real world friends don't see eye to eye with me on some subjects and I refrain from speaking my mind because it could cost me their friendship.

I'm both more invested and less in my online existence. More - in that I can speak freely, explain fully, without interruptions- I can even go back and edit my thoughts for clarity if need be.
Less - if someone says something that really, truly bothers me - I only know them through the monitor, thus they are easily eliminated.  I might miss them but I can only know them through the characters on a screen anyway. I can't bump into them in the store or where ever. 

People that I know online might have habits that would make them impossible for me to know in person.  What - you're NOT a dog person? Ugh - she wears so much Perfume - It makes me physically ill. I hate that she always says  'youse guys'. 

Even so there are still times that I need to write private locked journal entries that are just for me. These are usually intense therapy type entries OR whiney, self-pitying crap that I would be ashamed to share.  Sometimes I just really really need to get it out.

There are tons of things I should be doing rather than writing or reading LJ. but... so what as the commercial says I regard it as time well wasted.

So... what's a nice (gender specific noun) like you, doing in a place like this?

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