indecisive

So I have a show next weekend.

it's an important show for ME.  (because I hate dancing in front of other bellydancers and - this audience is ALL bellydancers)

the organizer had asked me to do wings - and I agreed - but I've decided I HATE them.  mostly because they choke me unless I hook them into my costume rather than around my neck - and I HATE the piece of music that I had chosen and basically - HATE HATE HATE.

So i emailed the organizer and told her - nope can't do it.  can I do something else?  she says YES - but I need any music change by Saturday morning.   and the three alternate songs that I'm looking at - I can't choose -

Inti Malekeh  (my latest student choreography)

Ounousah (which means Femininity)  - a future choreography - I'm wondering if the reason I like this song so much is the name.  And it would be WRONG to choose a song for the name.

or lastly.

Samira Amira (Samira is a Princess)


they all are starting to sound the same to me.  Well they are all Lebanese - I think they might even all be from the same composer - which is why they are in my playlist to begin with - I can rule out the first one - it would be the easiest because it is already finished I would just need to adapt to solo - but MY students know it - or most of it. I've been teaching it the last few weeks.

so that leaves me with the other two.

Jeff chose the Ounousah one.  - well that settles that.   - now I just need to DEAL WITH IT.

I hate being so indecisive and flighty.  ugh.